Yes, I just quoted Britney Spears. It's such a great lyric to my life though. I've always loved performing, since before I can even remember. We make fun of my mother now because she is constantly singing and doesn't even realize that she is, and yet, I know I'm the same way even already.
I used to love doing theatre--acting, singing you name it. If people were watching I was all for it. The biggest rush I ever felt was that moment before the lights on the stage came on, and my heart was billion a million miles an hour, anticipating the crowds reaction to my performance. Once I got to high school though, it wasn't cool anymore, and I lost that rush. I did chorus for one year and that was it. I suppressed the need to perform in public and confined myself to belting out in my room, on my karaoke machine. I'm sure my family was thrilled :/.
Since high school the first time I sang karaoke--solo, in public, and sober--was at the Villas karaoke night. My sister told me I wouldn't do it, so I had a point to prove. She said that because I wasn't with my friends or drinking and I wouldn't be able to sing in front of people alone. I had an awesome crew (including Steven Joseph Webb) cheering me on though :) But I did it. Three songs. "I Want You To Want Me" (which is now my go-to karaoke song) "Let's Give Them Something to Talk About", and "All I Want" (Toad and the Wet Sprocket). Now yes, I just stood there petrified out of my mind as my Sister kept yelling "DANCE EVA DANCE" at me, but I sang the songs and I owned them as much as I could.
I've sang karaoke a lot in public since them, but I am still really envious of the people who can just get up there and put on a show like nobody is watching. I'll sing my heart out, but I get so nervous! It wasn't until the last time, Valentines Day, that Autumn and I did our awesome rendition of No Doubt's "Spiderwebs" that I actually moved around and had FUN with it.
I want to be a ROCKSTAR. I really do. I can't even imagine a better feeling or a greater high. I know I have a long way to go, but my goal in LIFE is to one day be on a REAL stage, with a REAL crowd, singing with a REAL band, Even if it's just a small venue with a local band for ONE night. I want to feel that RUSH again!!
**raises glass** Cheers to Dreaming Big <3
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Go for it Eva.
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