"I Feel the Adreniline Running Through My Veins...Spotlight on Me and I'm Ready to Break.."

Yes, I just quoted Britney Spears. It's such a great lyric to my life though. I've always loved performing, since before I can even remember. We make fun of my mother now because she is constantly singing and doesn't even realize that she is, and yet, I know I'm the same way even already.

I used to love doing theatre--acting, singing you name it. If people were watching I was all for it. The biggest rush I ever felt was that moment before the lights on the stage came on, and my heart was billion a million miles an hour, anticipating the crowds reaction to my performance. Once I got to high school though, it wasn't cool anymore, and I lost that rush. I did chorus for one year and that was it. I suppressed the need to perform in public and confined myself to belting out in my room, on my karaoke machine. I'm sure my family was thrilled :/.

Since high school the first time I sang karaoke--solo, in public, and sober--was at the Villas karaoke night. My sister told me I wouldn't do it, so I had a point to prove. She said that because I wasn't with my friends or drinking and I wouldn't be able to sing in front of people alone. I had an awesome crew (including Steven Joseph Webb) cheering me on though :) But I did it. Three songs. "I Want You To Want Me" (which is now my go-to karaoke song) "Let's Give Them Something to Talk About", and "All I Want" (Toad and the Wet Sprocket). Now yes, I just stood there petrified out of my mind as my Sister kept yelling "DANCE EVA DANCE" at me, but I sang the songs and I owned them as much as I could.

I've sang karaoke a lot in public since them, but I am still really envious of the people who can just get up there and put on a show like nobody is watching. I'll sing my heart out, but I get so nervous! It wasn't until the last time, Valentines Day, that Autumn and I did our awesome rendition of No Doubt's "Spiderwebs" that I actually moved around and had FUN with it.

I want to be a ROCKSTAR. I really do. I can't even imagine a better feeling or a greater high. I know I have a long way to go, but my goal in LIFE is to one day be on a REAL stage, with a REAL crowd, singing with a REAL band, Even if it's just a small venue with a local band for ONE night. I want to feel that RUSH again!!

**raises glass** Cheers to Dreaming Big <3

"I Never Said That!"

My mother is constantly saying and doing crazy things. Half the things she doesn't remember, or claims "I never said that!", Like when she told us we were "Sick, and they did studies on us." because we smarted her with gummy bears, or the time she told the kayaking guy she'll "lick him up" the next time we go because Amber and I were licking the salt off our arms. I could probably write 456589322485 blogs about her, but this one is about one of the most classic stories of all. I've probably told this story a million times already, even just the other weekend to Autumn's dad. I figure why not put it on here for the whole world to read :)

It was back when we were all still living together at the Villas, in the 2 bedroom/2 bath/and a loft apartment. I think I had just got back from school and went into Amber's room. She had a bathroom connected to her bedroom and she had that face on. She said, "I just want to warn you, I think Mom tried to flush a condom down the toilet. I went in and there was a plastic piece in the toilet."

I of course was shocked and disgusted and immediately went to confront her. My mother started cracking up and then proceeded to tell us what she really did, and was acting like we were the crazy ones for thinking it was a condom. Apparently she had clogged the toilet and thought that by putting an acidophilis (pill) in it, it was magically work to unclog the toilet. Her reasoning for it was because the acidophilis is used to break down the foods in your stomach and help you digest food. So what we actually saw was the capsule from the pill.

Why someone would ever to think an acidophilis in the toilet is beyond me, but it does make for a very good story to tell.

**raises glass** Cheers to Timeless Stories <3

All the SINGLE ladies...

I can't say they are not completely overplaying that song this weekend, but it does still make me a little bit happy. I'm actually a little bit excited for Valentines Day this year. I mean don't get me wrong I still hate this "holiday" and it was especially hard getting through this work week not indulging in any of the delicious sweets all around. I have successfully avoided temptation this year, which I am actually really surprised about and am giving a huge KUDOS to myself for once.

I started this new diet plan originally with the intention to give myself until June to look "hot". Basically there is a certain guy (that has no idea) back home that I haven't seen forever and wanted to impress when I do go back for Fiesta this year. Lately that motivation has finally begun to shift.

Now that I'm starting to actually see results I realize this isn't for him..or any other guy for that matter... it's for me. I could care less about how I look for someone else, I need to be happy with myself. Knowing that I'm on my way feels awesome.

I did already watch Titanic today...and yes I cried. Jack Dawson breaks my heart every year. It was sad at first not having my Ben and Jerry's Half Baked wonderful goodness to indulge myself in as I always have for past Valentines Day, but I felt great sipping on my "rich chocolate royale Slim Fast shake", and knowing I didn't give in.

Now that I'm 21 I will hopefully be spending tonight downtown, at the bars, with my real boyfriend Jack Daniels (who no, is not part of my diet plan, but is very occasionally used to reward my good behavior :) ), and in the good company of my fellow "single ladies"!

**raises glass** Cheers to staying single <3

Tonight I'm Gonna Party Like It's 1999

I first off need to give props to Sophie 103.7 for their "Best of the 90's weekend". I don't know how often they do this but this is the second time i've heard it within a month and I have been glued to the radio all weekend.

I love music. It's very rare for me to actually find music that I don't like. I love to listen to it, sing to it, dance to it...breathe by it.

I have concluded though, that NOTHING beats the 90's. I mean come on Toad and the Wet Sprocket, Gin Blossoms, Third Eye Blind, Ace of Base, Oasis, Green Day, Blink 182, Counting Crows, Spin Doctors, Tonic, Alanis Morrisette, The Cranberries

Not to mention my classic poppy loves....Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, Spice Girls, Hanson...uhhh I love it.

Now yes, I do listen to the current nonesense and still enjoy it, But "Lickin' it like a lollipop" and "Droppin' it like it's hot" is just not the same. I want songs that have lyrics and meaning, but are still catchy and fun to dance to..is it really that hard to make music like that anymore?

I want to go back and live in 90's music Forever.


**raises glass** Cheers to AMAZING music <3