**There Is No Other Way, I get the Final Say..."

When I get angry at men, I do this for my closure. Enjoy kids <3















**Raises Glass** Cheers to Moving On :D

**It's like a rush I can't explain, like you shot something crazy into my veins.."

Most people have probably already seen this video, and had a good laugh over it--I on the other hand am brought to tears every time I watch it. I know..tears? right? It makes me happy, it actually makes me want to fall on love one day. To know that people like THIS actually exists (besides Autumn and Me) makes me so incredibly happy.

Ever since I was little I always wished life would be like a musical..that you would walk out on the street and everyone would burst into song in synchronized dance moves. In my mind it happened all the time. Sure this was obviously planned and choreographed (amazingly might I add) but still just a good. But really your wedding day is supposed to be the best day of your life, shouldn't it be special?--a day you and those that were there will never forget? Watching this video you KNOW those two will live a happy and FUN life together.

Watching it was Autumn I immediately (probably less than a minute into it) "I NEED to have this at my wedding!" Even though I haven't found that person yet. I tried to think well who else (besides the groom-he won't have a choice) is gonna wanna do this with me? But really Autumn is is, Amber may be serious but she would totally do her "Beyonce twirl" down the isle. Julia doesn't care and will obviously dance anywhere!! My Dad?!? Dorky white man moves, sign him up! Mom--you need to promise No Shakira/MyHumps/BestDancer@CampMabuhi and you'll be in too :D

SIGN ME UP!!

Enjoy Kids!! {{The embedding won't let you watch it from my blog but click the Watch on YouTube button on it and it'll take you right to it!!}}

**raises glass** Cheers to THOSE TWO!! --and for my wedding in like 10 years :)

"Baby there's no other superstar you know that i'll be your papa-paparazzi..."

As I was beyond turning the dreaded 22, today it has officially been 1 month since i've turned 22.

How is it?

A-freaking-mazing...I honestly think i've had more fun in the last month then **gasps** my 21st year combined :0 Between my birthday weekend, back home for fiesta, del mar fair, 4th of July back in SD,and just yesterday OTL (where has that even been all my life and why did I know nothing of it??) it has been awesome!! Here's a few pics to highlight the last month...

Kicking ass @ D&B

Rocking the "single ladies" dance in Salem, Ma

On my way to Bertucci's with my Love :D

FIESTA FIESTA






Del Mar Fair

HAPPY 4th!!


And GAY PRIDE next weekend!!




**raises glass** Cheers to SAN DIEGO and SUMMERTIME <3

Happy Father's Day!

Happy Father's Day to the
best Dad ever! You freaking rock!


**raises glass** Cheers to YOU! Love You!

"I wanna be Forever Young"

Now as I have been agonizing over the fact that I am about to be 21+1 (June 12th) I have finally come to a sensible solution. This with be my 2nd 21st Birthday, and it will become my yearly traditon. An annual celebration if you will. I'm not ready to grow up, this is my favorite age, and really it's not like I act older anyways right?!


***raises glass*** Cheers to an AMAZING year, and that this one will be even better than the last <3 <3

"Saying Goodbye is Never an Easy Thing..."

Dear FOX,

You ruin my life and break my heart!!

Love always,
The girl who clearly lives in a bubble and would like to stay in it


I just finished watching the SERIES finale of Prison Break (if you haven't watched it yet stop reading now) and I am seriously NOT happy.

I get that shows have to do things like this because "no one" would watch if it was always "Happily Ever After" and what not..(with that said, I totally would still watch) but really writers...it is the SERIES finale, not a season finale. You don't NEED to keep the suspense alive because there will be NO other season to follow so WHY DO YOU NEED TO BREAK MY HEART?

Not only was it the saddest ending (that I clearly did not expect) but you had to have everyone get exonerated and living happily ever after 4 years later, little boy Scofield born with a lovely happy reunion and then *BAM* wait no everyone is reunited for what? TO VISIT MICHAEL'S GRAVE?!?! Why did you need to kill that beautiful man? :( What did this accomplish?

Lame FOX, Lame.

R.I.P. Michael Scofield (I will miss swooning over you, so please Wentworth do something sexy soon) and R.I.P. Prison Break and the 4 seasons of constant heart attacks I felt like I was having while watching the show.

***raises glass*** Cheers to the end of a very addictive show <3

"There's Gotta Be More..."

So maybe this is just my jacked up hormones talking (the pill is clearly messing with me), but I'm fed up and frustrated with my life.

I feel OLD. I know I know, I'm only 21---but only for another month :/ It's probably my fault for counting down to my 21st year for SO long that now that it has come and is almost gone I'm feeling like my freaking life is over. Not to mention there is NO way I can top last years "21st Birthday Weekend Shitshow" :(, and Amber is gone back to Mass, Autumn and Analynn will both be out of town. W T (freaking) F. So what the heck am I gonna do?

Worst part is, that's not even the main reason why I'm stressing. My life right now is so freaking predictable that I seriously just see it passing by way to fast. Monday-Friday...9-6..my life as a preschool teacher, Everyday is planned, on a schedule. Every night..come home make dinner, relax, don't do anything crazy cause I have work in the morning. I love my job, don't get me wrong but I need to break out of this routine before I drive myself insane.

Some of the best times are the ones not planned--Like when Andy called to say he was in LA and Analynn convinced me to just call out and we road tripped up together to see him for the day (THANK YOU), or the other week when Autumn's friend Steph was in town and we went to Mo's in Hillcrest (on what just happened to be their anniversary) on a Wednesday night and danced all night with dudes that had no interest in us (and could break it down way better), or going to PB for Lacey's Birthday on a Thursday and getting completely shitfaced and kicked out of the bar for the first time and feeling like crap the next day, but it was all totally 100% worth it.

I need to not care if I only get 3 hours sleep and have to work the next day. I need to not care if things aren't always the most practical. I need to not ALWAYS let money be the deciding factor (within reason). I need to LIVE.

(My diet plan does sort of put a damper on my life, but I will have to find a happy balance)

You never know when your life could end, and all I want is to be able to look back and not have regrets, not have to wish I fulfilled dreams, and actually go through with them all.

Starting this weekend, My new motto is life is gonna be flat out "Why Not". If I can't answer that question with a legitimate reason when asked then I'm gonna do it. Why Not? Live my life.


Wish me luck kids.


***raises glass*** Cheers to A New Chapter of My Life <3

"I am the cute one, she's just my sister"

:) So today is the last day before my lame sister moves back to Massachusetts :( So she's not really lame but she is because she is moving back. So this is my ode to Amber of most of the fun times we've had the last 3 years in Californ-i-a. (in hopes that she'll see this and want to stay :)


Pajama Parties


"Family" Dinners


Having more pies than people at Christmastime


Taking over Navy Ships!


Poppin' Champagne...sort of..


Searching for Prince Charming at Disneyland


yum yum Chinese food!


Taking over all the bases


Shirly Temples


Up on the rooftops!


Steven Joseph Webb


Surfing..or in my case, playing photographer


Getting dressed up :)


Halloween!


"Book" parties


Nights as my Alter Ego


Sad (and drunk) cause the boys were moving...now her too!! arg!


Gay Men/Gay Pride


Waiting for Dawson


Loving the big man :)


"Hikes" with a whooping cough


Dog Parks with my Niece


Still coming out on Halloween after the first crazy year


Crazies at Comic Con


Dealing with my Drunk Ass :/


New Years Eve!


Christmas Walkabouts and S'mores


Taking me to VEGAS!!!!


Gloucester Girls out in San Diego


St. Patrick's Day!


Our last walk-a-bout :(


I'm glad you came out here ya jerk :) as we obviously wouldn't have ever got as close as we did. I wish you weren't moving back to Mass, but I understand why you want to. I'll miss you dude. (I'll be back in 10 years when I come to marry Eugene Sixpack :) ) See you in June!!

**raises glass** Cheers to My Sister and all the things you've done for me <3

"Shut Up and Put Your Money Where Your Mouth Is..."

Welcome to my life Miss Katy Perry. We may be off to a rocky start but your CD player makes me giddy :).

I drove my new car to work for the first time on Thursday morning. The drive in was freaking awesome because I listened to old school BSB and Christina, actually having a working CD player again (and speakers that aren't blown out) is the best! I find parking (far away, and it's already 9) and I'm rushing to get all my stuff together. I get out my car and slam the door shut. When I go to walk away though, I realize my finger is caught in the door! :( I quickly start rumaging through my keys to find the right one to open the door again (forgetting for about 20 seconds that I didn't even lock it yet!) and finally open up the door. OUCH.

After almost passing out/throwing up from the sight of the blood and what not, it is now Saturday and finally starting to feel a little bit better. The kids were cracking me up with it though, Kiki was "coaching" me through changing the bandages (as i was biting my lip in order not to cuss like I would if I wasn't at work..) telling me "Oh no. It's okay Eva, Take a deeeeep breath, Take a deeeeep breath! It's okay! Shh..It's Okay!" Hilarious.

So Dear Katy, I know you may miss the quiet and careful driving of my sister, but it's me and you now..no more injuries :)

**raises glass** Cheers to NOT closes any more body parts in the car door again.

"It's Britney Bitch!"

**tears tears** Today marks the last day that I will ever drive my wicked awesome 1999 Hyundai Sonata, Britney. Yes, she's been used and abused (as I had been drving her since I was 16), but I love oh so much. Every dent has a story (except for the dbag who crashed it in the garage, tons of character.

I have so many memories with that car that I feel like a chapter of my life is ending today :(

It makes me miss when I had no worries, no cares (I know I'm still generally a carefree person). When we had nothing to do and I'd just be driving around Gloucester with Amy and Elyse blasting "Do Somethin'" in the middle of winter with the windows down so we could yell at boys and sing loud. We'd drive all the way up to the mall just so I could spray myself with curious and drive circles around trying to meet boys that didn't live in gloucester. We'd park the car at stagefort and just hang out and be stupid. Be young. I miss that.

As I peeled off my Red Sox and Patriots stickers this morning, I realized this is really the end.

My sister is moving back to Mass after this weekend, so I am buying her car from her, Hyundai Elantra...will 100,000 miles less than Britney. I am excited to drive a car in much better condition. Which I will be naming Miss Katy Perry duh :)

Here's some pictures from the past...



Extra Tears for this one :( old house too..




The day we moved to California..my love, my girls, my old house :(

So here's my R.I.P to Britney my love. (Even though she will be driven by somebody else, I am pretending she is gone for good)


**raises 10 glasses** Cheers to Britney and all of the kick ass memories <3 <3 <3

"Is it possible--Mr. Loveable is already my life?"

It's been a while since I've written on here, mostly just becasue I haven't been feeling very intellectual. So here's a quick update. I finally reached my first weight loss goal--to fit back into my 8th grade semi dress (purple) and a bonus of my Prom dress (pink), so I'm wicked stoked about that. Gowns and Crowns make me so happy...and No Tommie, Clowns do not. The grandparents have been in town for the whole month so things have been...busy, to say the least. Amber and Tommie are moving back home next month, and I really am not happy about it at all :( But I did also reserve my tickets for Fiesta!! I'll be back June 20-Jul 1 and I cannot wait! but that also means I need to get my ass in gear and keep trucking through this!! I'll write something more meaningful when I get the time!



**Raises glass** Cheers to GOWNS AND CROWNS <3 <3

"I Feel the Adreniline Running Through My Veins...Spotlight on Me and I'm Ready to Break.."

Yes, I just quoted Britney Spears. It's such a great lyric to my life though. I've always loved performing, since before I can even remember. We make fun of my mother now because she is constantly singing and doesn't even realize that she is, and yet, I know I'm the same way even already.

I used to love doing theatre--acting, singing you name it. If people were watching I was all for it. The biggest rush I ever felt was that moment before the lights on the stage came on, and my heart was billion a million miles an hour, anticipating the crowds reaction to my performance. Once I got to high school though, it wasn't cool anymore, and I lost that rush. I did chorus for one year and that was it. I suppressed the need to perform in public and confined myself to belting out in my room, on my karaoke machine. I'm sure my family was thrilled :/.

Since high school the first time I sang karaoke--solo, in public, and sober--was at the Villas karaoke night. My sister told me I wouldn't do it, so I had a point to prove. She said that because I wasn't with my friends or drinking and I wouldn't be able to sing in front of people alone. I had an awesome crew (including Steven Joseph Webb) cheering me on though :) But I did it. Three songs. "I Want You To Want Me" (which is now my go-to karaoke song) "Let's Give Them Something to Talk About", and "All I Want" (Toad and the Wet Sprocket). Now yes, I just stood there petrified out of my mind as my Sister kept yelling "DANCE EVA DANCE" at me, but I sang the songs and I owned them as much as I could.

I've sang karaoke a lot in public since them, but I am still really envious of the people who can just get up there and put on a show like nobody is watching. I'll sing my heart out, but I get so nervous! It wasn't until the last time, Valentines Day, that Autumn and I did our awesome rendition of No Doubt's "Spiderwebs" that I actually moved around and had FUN with it.

I want to be a ROCKSTAR. I really do. I can't even imagine a better feeling or a greater high. I know I have a long way to go, but my goal in LIFE is to one day be on a REAL stage, with a REAL crowd, singing with a REAL band, Even if it's just a small venue with a local band for ONE night. I want to feel that RUSH again!!

**raises glass** Cheers to Dreaming Big <3

"I Never Said That!"

My mother is constantly saying and doing crazy things. Half the things she doesn't remember, or claims "I never said that!", Like when she told us we were "Sick, and they did studies on us." because we smarted her with gummy bears, or the time she told the kayaking guy she'll "lick him up" the next time we go because Amber and I were licking the salt off our arms. I could probably write 456589322485 blogs about her, but this one is about one of the most classic stories of all. I've probably told this story a million times already, even just the other weekend to Autumn's dad. I figure why not put it on here for the whole world to read :)

It was back when we were all still living together at the Villas, in the 2 bedroom/2 bath/and a loft apartment. I think I had just got back from school and went into Amber's room. She had a bathroom connected to her bedroom and she had that face on. She said, "I just want to warn you, I think Mom tried to flush a condom down the toilet. I went in and there was a plastic piece in the toilet."

I of course was shocked and disgusted and immediately went to confront her. My mother started cracking up and then proceeded to tell us what she really did, and was acting like we were the crazy ones for thinking it was a condom. Apparently she had clogged the toilet and thought that by putting an acidophilis (pill) in it, it was magically work to unclog the toilet. Her reasoning for it was because the acidophilis is used to break down the foods in your stomach and help you digest food. So what we actually saw was the capsule from the pill.

Why someone would ever to think an acidophilis in the toilet is beyond me, but it does make for a very good story to tell.

**raises glass** Cheers to Timeless Stories <3

All the SINGLE ladies...

I can't say they are not completely overplaying that song this weekend, but it does still make me a little bit happy. I'm actually a little bit excited for Valentines Day this year. I mean don't get me wrong I still hate this "holiday" and it was especially hard getting through this work week not indulging in any of the delicious sweets all around. I have successfully avoided temptation this year, which I am actually really surprised about and am giving a huge KUDOS to myself for once.

I started this new diet plan originally with the intention to give myself until June to look "hot". Basically there is a certain guy (that has no idea) back home that I haven't seen forever and wanted to impress when I do go back for Fiesta this year. Lately that motivation has finally begun to shift.

Now that I'm starting to actually see results I realize this isn't for him..or any other guy for that matter... it's for me. I could care less about how I look for someone else, I need to be happy with myself. Knowing that I'm on my way feels awesome.

I did already watch Titanic today...and yes I cried. Jack Dawson breaks my heart every year. It was sad at first not having my Ben and Jerry's Half Baked wonderful goodness to indulge myself in as I always have for past Valentines Day, but I felt great sipping on my "rich chocolate royale Slim Fast shake", and knowing I didn't give in.

Now that I'm 21 I will hopefully be spending tonight downtown, at the bars, with my real boyfriend Jack Daniels (who no, is not part of my diet plan, but is very occasionally used to reward my good behavior :) ), and in the good company of my fellow "single ladies"!

**raises glass** Cheers to staying single <3

Tonight I'm Gonna Party Like It's 1999

I first off need to give props to Sophie 103.7 for their "Best of the 90's weekend". I don't know how often they do this but this is the second time i've heard it within a month and I have been glued to the radio all weekend.

I love music. It's very rare for me to actually find music that I don't like. I love to listen to it, sing to it, dance to it...breathe by it.

I have concluded though, that NOTHING beats the 90's. I mean come on Toad and the Wet Sprocket, Gin Blossoms, Third Eye Blind, Ace of Base, Oasis, Green Day, Blink 182, Counting Crows, Spin Doctors, Tonic, Alanis Morrisette, The Cranberries

Not to mention my classic poppy loves....Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, Spice Girls, Hanson...uhhh I love it.

Now yes, I do listen to the current nonesense and still enjoy it, But "Lickin' it like a lollipop" and "Droppin' it like it's hot" is just not the same. I want songs that have lyrics and meaning, but are still catchy and fun to dance to..is it really that hard to make music like that anymore?

I want to go back and live in 90's music Forever.


**raises glass** Cheers to AMAZING music <3

Jesus Take the Wheel...

This is not a religious blog...and I'm far from a religious individual but I was reminded today of one my near death experiences.

I was driving to work this morning on the 52, in the fast lane, and I was behind an old pick up truck. Thankfully I was paying attention and all of a sudden his back tire blew out. He barely put on his breaks and swiftly moved over to the right lane and then breakdown lane as if nothing even happened. As I had chunks of tire flying at my car and the smell of burning rubber coming through my window I was shocked at how smoothly it all went for him.

About three years ago I was on my way to school up in Oceanside, once again in the fast lane, when my tire blew out....only things did not go quite as smoothly for me. I had no idea what had happened when all of a sudden my car started smoking and swerving. I of course slammed on my breaks, causing my car to swerve even more, and I ended up completely spinning around so I was now in the carpool lane facing the oncoming traffic. I have no idea how I did not hit another car, or the guardrail for that matter.

I called my mother first cause I knew she was home, we had just moved here and she had no idea was I was so she told me to call 911. I proceeded to call and it started talking to me in Spanish. Really? I thought. I was crying of course as cars are speeding past me going 80+mph. These two Marines in uniform stopped to see if I needed help...and that did put a big 'ole smile on my face, and eventually a woman from highway patrol came. They had to get a tow truck and stop traffic so I could go to the other side of the freeway :)

Even though I really don't believe in Jesus and what not I know someone up there is looking out for me.

Everything worked out, but I do wish I could have been as calm and collected as the guy this morning. Kudos man, you're pretty awesome.

**raises glass** Cheers to being alive <3

New Blog, New Year, New Beginning

Let's try this again.

Welcome to my new blog,

Today is a historical day as Barack Obama was sworn into office this morning. If you know me you know normally I could care less about what is going on in the world around me, but seeing how this economy has crumbled under the reigns of George W. D-Bag I have never cared more about what the future will bring. Seeing how the downfall has affected my family and others around me, all I can hope for is the change Obama will bring us.

Will he make mistakes? Sure. We all do.

Will people be criticizing his every move? Of course.

Do I care? Not at all.

I was a senior in high school when Bush got re-elected and still was unable to vote, so this year I knew what I had to do. Autumn and I went to the registrar the morning after Halloween..hung over and feeling ridiculous, and waited in line for 4+ hours to get our votes in early.



It was well beyond worth it (except that Prop 8 passed but that is a story for another day) listening to his promises for our country today. I am so proud of America for giving us another chance, and so hopeful for what Obama will do.

**raises glass** Cheers to our future <3